My weight has been steadily going up. Very slowly. This week showed a three pound gain. I have been trying to blame it on the weight training but I had to break it all down and be totally honest. My nutrition is the problem. Mainly I have been binging one day a week and then dieting the rest. I also give myself little treats and don’t count for them. I know I did not really gain three pounds though. That is a scale aberration but the panic and shock from this caused me to halt immediately and re-evaluate.
I am doing a 14 day detox and laying off all exercise besides yoga until I get on track and take off this six pound gain. The strange thing is that this is not showing in my clothes. My body shape has changed from the workouts I am doing, but I think I should be experiencing more fat loss so it shows better so that is what the next two weeks are about. The first day was tough.
The worst thing is the difference this makes in my mental attitude. I know when I was at the lowest weight I felt great and this six pounds is confusing me. It feels like 60 pounds. I need to work on my mental attitude.
The most important aspect of this is DENIAL. I am in denial about what I am eating and I am compromising my trigger foods so I need to eliminate them. My trigger foods are crunchy chippy things and soda pop. This detox should help. I am doing this for 14 days and then will re-evaluate and decide where to proceed. I need to get the nutrition under control or nothing will help. I listened to some experts on the Busy Woman’s Guide to Fat Loss and all the experts were quite firm and reinforced that NOTHING works without the proper nutrition.
If I sound calm, believe me, I have had my freak out. The weird thing is that my clothes fit better and I look better but there is too much fat. I want to eliminate this six pounds before it turns to 60.
Monday, April 30, 2007
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Frustrated
Over the ab flab. Seems like I eat superclean and have been working out so hard and just don't feel like I am getting results quick enough. All I can do is keep it up but I get tired of logging food and planning the hours of exercise I do and just not having the body I want.
On a good front, I am getting more opportunities to teach yoga. THAT truly excites me and inspires me in so many ways. Teaching yoga has been one of the most remarkable experiences of my life. My yoga practice is already precious to me but I get into a totally different mind set but now I regard teaching as practice too. It is all the same. Really. I am looking for some opportunities to get more training and would like to go away for a couple of weeks next year. I am looking into some training in California. I am going to Midwest Yoga Conference for some teacher training sessions next month.
Tonight I practice.
Food is clean today. I have low carbed it this week and had oatmeal for breakfast and just lingered over it. Hope to have a good weigh in this week.
On a good front, I am getting more opportunities to teach yoga. THAT truly excites me and inspires me in so many ways. Teaching yoga has been one of the most remarkable experiences of my life. My yoga practice is already precious to me but I get into a totally different mind set but now I regard teaching as practice too. It is all the same. Really. I am looking for some opportunities to get more training and would like to go away for a couple of weeks next year. I am looking into some training in California. I am going to Midwest Yoga Conference for some teacher training sessions next month.
Tonight I practice.
Food is clean today. I have low carbed it this week and had oatmeal for breakfast and just lingered over it. Hope to have a good weigh in this week.
Monday, April 23, 2007
HERE!
Since I got a request to start bloggin, blog I will. I thought I was a lone dark voice in the middle of nowhere.
I won’t use the superbusy excuse to not blog but I sort of have been. I started that Alwyn Cosgrove Afterburn and after eight weeks I am seeing results. My body just did this abrupt change especially since I am nailing the nutrition.
You see folks nutrition is 90% of the equation. Now the workouts are totally reshaping my body but without the food plan, I would not be losing the bodyfat I am.
I am doing some tough workouts but the nutrition is so key to this. That plus intense workouts mean bodyfat lose and a hot bod. So right now I am more intense than ever on getting what I want. Which is a rocking body at age 50 that a 20 year old would want.
And I am not that far from it. My gym is on a Big Ten campus and as a worker bee here I can use their shitty facility for a nominal fee. This is hardly a nice health club. It has everything in it, but not in the best environment. For one thing it is really busy. But as hard as these kids workout I see few bodies I admire. These girls have no clue. They go and do a bunch of crunches, then do a leisurely 30 minutes on the elliptical while reading a magazine and then out to drink beer for the weekend. Since when do 20 year old girls have love handles. I am at the point where I can see what they need. Most of them need to train on weights, tighten up the nutrition, lose the beer, and work up a sweat once in a while.
On top of all this I am going to Bikrams 4-5 times a week. Oh yeah, and now I am teaching HOT yoga, which is Bikrams in disguise. My students really like my classes. Actually this has been life transforming for me. I have only taught seven classes, eight counting tomorrow, but I am beginning to question am I an accountant who is a yoga teacher or a yoga teacher who does accounting. Being a yoga teacher feels more true to my authentic self. I struggle with my real job, but feel natural at teaching yoga. Actually that is what people keep saying to me. You are a natural. Wow. Life transforming.
I also quit Ediets. I could no longer relate to the people on there. It seems like they were using their emotional problems as excuses to keep fat rather than actually working at the emotional problems. It is an easy veil to hide behind. I did it. Getting rid of the denial took a LOT of work. I no longer live in any denial where I can discern it whether it is about food, family, life or whatever. I am very aware of it in others though. Someone comes up with excuses for something and I go oh yeah, ah DENIAL. My daughter actually did this. She is overweight and has been working at it and whined to me a week ago that high blood pressure, obesity and diabetes were HEREDITARY and she had it on both sides of the family and is scared. I chased her out of that. I said the only thing on both sides of the family are lifestyles conducive to those problems and if she did not change the lifestyle that she is at risk, but she does not have these things in her genes. Maybe the proclivity for obesity but she isn’t inheriting it, like on that stupid blood pressure commercial. God I hate that. Pharmaceutical companies LYING to us to see drugs and make us want to take their drugs. They also make it look attractive to be on prescription poison. Actually they do make it look sexy etc. It is called marketing. Be aware. These are the people who sold this company a bill of goods about tobacco and alcohol and now use it for the food they poison us with.Does that seem drastic enough?
I won’t use the superbusy excuse to not blog but I sort of have been. I started that Alwyn Cosgrove Afterburn and after eight weeks I am seeing results. My body just did this abrupt change especially since I am nailing the nutrition.
You see folks nutrition is 90% of the equation. Now the workouts are totally reshaping my body but without the food plan, I would not be losing the bodyfat I am.
I am doing some tough workouts but the nutrition is so key to this. That plus intense workouts mean bodyfat lose and a hot bod. So right now I am more intense than ever on getting what I want. Which is a rocking body at age 50 that a 20 year old would want.
And I am not that far from it. My gym is on a Big Ten campus and as a worker bee here I can use their shitty facility for a nominal fee. This is hardly a nice health club. It has everything in it, but not in the best environment. For one thing it is really busy. But as hard as these kids workout I see few bodies I admire. These girls have no clue. They go and do a bunch of crunches, then do a leisurely 30 minutes on the elliptical while reading a magazine and then out to drink beer for the weekend. Since when do 20 year old girls have love handles. I am at the point where I can see what they need. Most of them need to train on weights, tighten up the nutrition, lose the beer, and work up a sweat once in a while.
On top of all this I am going to Bikrams 4-5 times a week. Oh yeah, and now I am teaching HOT yoga, which is Bikrams in disguise. My students really like my classes. Actually this has been life transforming for me. I have only taught seven classes, eight counting tomorrow, but I am beginning to question am I an accountant who is a yoga teacher or a yoga teacher who does accounting. Being a yoga teacher feels more true to my authentic self. I struggle with my real job, but feel natural at teaching yoga. Actually that is what people keep saying to me. You are a natural. Wow. Life transforming.
I also quit Ediets. I could no longer relate to the people on there. It seems like they were using their emotional problems as excuses to keep fat rather than actually working at the emotional problems. It is an easy veil to hide behind. I did it. Getting rid of the denial took a LOT of work. I no longer live in any denial where I can discern it whether it is about food, family, life or whatever. I am very aware of it in others though. Someone comes up with excuses for something and I go oh yeah, ah DENIAL. My daughter actually did this. She is overweight and has been working at it and whined to me a week ago that high blood pressure, obesity and diabetes were HEREDITARY and she had it on both sides of the family and is scared. I chased her out of that. I said the only thing on both sides of the family are lifestyles conducive to those problems and if she did not change the lifestyle that she is at risk, but she does not have these things in her genes. Maybe the proclivity for obesity but she isn’t inheriting it, like on that stupid blood pressure commercial. God I hate that. Pharmaceutical companies LYING to us to see drugs and make us want to take their drugs. They also make it look attractive to be on prescription poison. Actually they do make it look sexy etc. It is called marketing. Be aware. These are the people who sold this company a bill of goods about tobacco and alcohol and now use it for the food they poison us with.Does that seem drastic enough?
Monday, April 02, 2007
I TOLD THEM SO
I have noticed for the past few months that there has been an awful sour odor emanating from my fiance’s boy bathroom and that one of them was having quite the episodes in there and I narrowed it down to the 20 year old. He keeps turning the fan on for hours and I have to shut the door now every time I go by. Yesterday I could smell it downstairs. I mentioned it to him and he talked to the kid about it and sure enough, he has been having problems for several months.
I am not surprised. The two boys were raised on prepared foods. They never eat a fruit or vegetable of any sort. That is NOT an exaggeration. When I first moved there I idealistically thought I could change them but they resisted and now I have to eat my own meals separately. They won’t eat what I eat and I won’t eat what they eat. I am thinking this kid has diverticulitis or IBS. He is supposed to go to the doctor this week.
No matter what he needs a radical change to his diet of frozen chicken patties and frozen pizzas. He won’t even eat whole potatos. It has to be instant. I tried teaching df about perimeter shopping but he buys nothing on the perimeter except milk and high fat hamburger. They eat any dinner out of a box. Lots of bologna and hot dogs. White bread.
Hate to say I told them so. But I did. Plus the 15 year old started a sport and got hurt. Again. He weighs a hundred and minus nothing. His diet is the worst. Orange soda and chips and candy. One in a while some chicken. No milk. He may have a stress fracture in his hip from track. Surprising? No.
Then I come into work and my coworker is having stomach problems and may have an ulcer. Her diet is horrible too. She talks about losing weight but never does it. Someone just brought a bowl of taco salad they made out and of course she had some.
My weight is slowly ever so slowly coming down again and I don’t eat perfect, but I know this is ongoing. I prefer the healthy food I eat now to the crap I see other people stuff themselves with. I find it alarming living in a household with two young kids who really have rarely had a healthy meal in their lives and now starting to see the consequences. I think df is alarmed though. He went to the grocery store and actually brought some veggies and fruit and had oatmeal and berries for breakfast himself. He can’t say I didn’t warn him.
I am not surprised. The two boys were raised on prepared foods. They never eat a fruit or vegetable of any sort. That is NOT an exaggeration. When I first moved there I idealistically thought I could change them but they resisted and now I have to eat my own meals separately. They won’t eat what I eat and I won’t eat what they eat. I am thinking this kid has diverticulitis or IBS. He is supposed to go to the doctor this week.
No matter what he needs a radical change to his diet of frozen chicken patties and frozen pizzas. He won’t even eat whole potatos. It has to be instant. I tried teaching df about perimeter shopping but he buys nothing on the perimeter except milk and high fat hamburger. They eat any dinner out of a box. Lots of bologna and hot dogs. White bread.
Hate to say I told them so. But I did. Plus the 15 year old started a sport and got hurt. Again. He weighs a hundred and minus nothing. His diet is the worst. Orange soda and chips and candy. One in a while some chicken. No milk. He may have a stress fracture in his hip from track. Surprising? No.
Then I come into work and my coworker is having stomach problems and may have an ulcer. Her diet is horrible too. She talks about losing weight but never does it. Someone just brought a bowl of taco salad they made out and of course she had some.
My weight is slowly ever so slowly coming down again and I don’t eat perfect, but I know this is ongoing. I prefer the healthy food I eat now to the crap I see other people stuff themselves with. I find it alarming living in a household with two young kids who really have rarely had a healthy meal in their lives and now starting to see the consequences. I think df is alarmed though. He went to the grocery store and actually brought some veggies and fruit and had oatmeal and berries for breakfast himself. He can’t say I didn’t warn him.
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