Another Damn Weight Loss Blog
I have been very frustrated with my lack of weight loss. It seems like I should be losing but I am not. I am working out very hard every day and am constantly working on my nutrition and logging my calories. So today I thought what the hell? Why not just sit here already below my initial goal and enjoy it. I look great. My body is improving all the time. If my weight wants to let go, it will. But of course there is the other side that says more, better, keep going.
Active weight loss, like I spent a year in, is hard work but the rewards are great and the scale is a good monitor as it goes down. Now the results are more subtle. I can't brag that I lost a pound last week, but I know I improved my physique. It changes all the time. It has to when you work out as hard as I do. So I continue to plug along.
Yesterday in yoga teacher training, I taught the group the first half of the yoga series and I did an outstanding job. It was so rewarding to hear how good I did. It felt very natural and I had fun doing it. I wanted to do more. I think I am a born teacher working as a boring accountant and it is nice to do something rewarding that people will appreciate and can improve their lives with.
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
THE BALANCE
The balance of power has changed with my weight loss. I knew I would deal with it in my family but outside of the family it has gotten worse.
I had planned a party for this Saturday over the past month and two couples were invited. The two women were friends at one point, but one has offended the other in a variety of ways and this past Sunday, the offended one, who is a better friend of mine, told me she didn’t want to come because of this other women. Because this is a work relationship, they will have to interact in social situations and the one woman is clueless that my friend is upset with her, because she has never told her. She just rants about her to me all the time. My closer friend, J, has somewhat of a martyr complex and informed me she had told df that she didn’t want to come. (They work together). Of course he spared my feelings and never told me but I was getting the idea that no one was too excited about my party.J has been very passive aggressive about my weight loss. Last time I saw her she seemed offended that I have lost so much and asked me in stern voice exactly how much more weight I intended to lose! Since then I have kind of laid low with her but was hoping my party would be fun.
Then she suggested to me she would put aside her feelings about the other woman, for my sake, and come to my party anyways. Awww!! What a great friend! That is SO nice of her Joan said sarcastically.
Well, I am not going to let her be a martyr at my expense. So today I pulled the plug and made a lame veiled excuse and cancelled the party after which she told me that she had intended to call me and tell me she was going to come. I don’t think she is stupid. She must realize I cancelled the party due to her, but she acted like she BELIEVED my lame excuse to cancel.
See this woman is exactly what she keeps calling the other woman. A selfish attention whore. She doesn’t want ME to have the attention by pulling off a nice party and being thin, so she ruined it for me! But I didn’t let her. Because I don’t need friends like that and as of today I no longer regard her as a friend. She suggested we get together soon but that won’t happen. I am not going to put myself in the position. Again. Of her having any power over me. I felt bad this morning but thought you know, why do I want to spend a lot of money on a party that no one appreciates. I just wanted everyone to have fun after all. I am not out after accolades or anything.
So I won’t be planning any parties any time soon with them. She suggested she would have a gettogether at her house soon. But I won’t go.
I also left her with the caveat that I had just purchased a large amount of EXPENSIVE clothes and BOOTS this past weekend because not long ago I told her on the phone I had purchased new jeans and she told me she wished I wouldn't do that since I am losing weight so fast and I am wasting money on clothes that will get to big.
I haven't lost any real weight in almost three months. My weight is pretty stable. Try as I will, the scale is not budging. My body is changing, but not my weight so I think where I am is pretty much where I am staying, with improvements.
Anyway I am better off with no friends at all than with this woman.
I had planned a party for this Saturday over the past month and two couples were invited. The two women were friends at one point, but one has offended the other in a variety of ways and this past Sunday, the offended one, who is a better friend of mine, told me she didn’t want to come because of this other women. Because this is a work relationship, they will have to interact in social situations and the one woman is clueless that my friend is upset with her, because she has never told her. She just rants about her to me all the time. My closer friend, J, has somewhat of a martyr complex and informed me she had told df that she didn’t want to come. (They work together). Of course he spared my feelings and never told me but I was getting the idea that no one was too excited about my party.J has been very passive aggressive about my weight loss. Last time I saw her she seemed offended that I have lost so much and asked me in stern voice exactly how much more weight I intended to lose! Since then I have kind of laid low with her but was hoping my party would be fun.
Then she suggested to me she would put aside her feelings about the other woman, for my sake, and come to my party anyways. Awww!! What a great friend! That is SO nice of her Joan said sarcastically.
Well, I am not going to let her be a martyr at my expense. So today I pulled the plug and made a lame veiled excuse and cancelled the party after which she told me that she had intended to call me and tell me she was going to come. I don’t think she is stupid. She must realize I cancelled the party due to her, but she acted like she BELIEVED my lame excuse to cancel.
See this woman is exactly what she keeps calling the other woman. A selfish attention whore. She doesn’t want ME to have the attention by pulling off a nice party and being thin, so she ruined it for me! But I didn’t let her. Because I don’t need friends like that and as of today I no longer regard her as a friend. She suggested we get together soon but that won’t happen. I am not going to put myself in the position. Again. Of her having any power over me. I felt bad this morning but thought you know, why do I want to spend a lot of money on a party that no one appreciates. I just wanted everyone to have fun after all. I am not out after accolades or anything.
So I won’t be planning any parties any time soon with them. She suggested she would have a gettogether at her house soon. But I won’t go.
I also left her with the caveat that I had just purchased a large amount of EXPENSIVE clothes and BOOTS this past weekend because not long ago I told her on the phone I had purchased new jeans and she told me she wished I wouldn't do that since I am losing weight so fast and I am wasting money on clothes that will get to big.
I haven't lost any real weight in almost three months. My weight is pretty stable. Try as I will, the scale is not budging. My body is changing, but not my weight so I think where I am is pretty much where I am staying, with improvements.
Anyway I am better off with no friends at all than with this woman.
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
YOGA MIRACLE
There is a woman in my yoga teacher training who is a little older than I am. 55. She has a remarkable story the teachers like to tell. She came in two years ago, 70 pounds heavier than she is now and had suffered a heart attack, had high blood pressure and borderline diabetic. She was taking the meds the western doc had prescribed and was basically a walking time bomb. She said she had battled weight all her life and the little heart attack scared her enough so she knew she had to do something. For some reason she walked in the studio, got through the first week of Bikram HELL and now two years later is one of the studios total transformation studies. She practices regularly 5-6 times a week, has lost 70 pounds, is off her meds, and is a future yoga teacher leader goddess who can help others.
Yesterday she told us she had been to her doctor and her blood pressure was like 100/60. She is off all meds, has kept her weight off and she said she is just a calmer person. She quit a stressful job she hated and is embarking on a new career in the medical field. She looks great and bought herself a convertible. In other words, she transformed her life 180 degrees.
She contributes most of her success to finding Bikrams. Then she told us about her friends who are skeptical. To even try it. Because THEY HATE HEAT! Or they don’t have time. Or they just don’t believe, in the face of a prime example of it WORKING, that it can work and do all of that.
Of course you would think her doctor is a believer, but no. The yo yo said she needs to check with the other dumb dumb doctor specialist to make sure she should not be on the meds. Those docs believe in the meds the pharmaceutical companies get them to sell and that the insurance companies cover with money from our premiums. They back those up. I guess the yo yo must believe that the meds are better than yoga, which is weird. And a fad.
I asked what she did to change her eating habits and she said after the yoga started, her eating habits changed sort of gradually and naturally.
She knows she was on the path to deadsville. She got scared straight after the heart attack. Most people are scared when it happens. They might go through surgery and rehab, but chances are, they forget about being scared and almost dying and go back to what go them there.
Did you know during bypass surgery that they actually have to stop your heart and the biggest risk of the surgery is that they can’t start it back again, which the risk of is even larger if you compound it with obesity and other related problems?The sad thing is most of our society would think the doctor is right. Going off meds they prescribe is dangerous! My fiance’s 14 year old son was ‘diagnosed’ with ADD last year and this year still takes a sleeping pill at night to sleep and then pops a pill to wake up. My fiancé is really against drugs. He thinks drugs are evil, if they are not prescribed by a doctor and he trusts the whacko therapist who prescribed this, because now the kid seems ‘better’. This kid lives on the following foods: orange soda, chips, hot dogs, bologna, white pasta occasionally, white bread, and occasionally some beef or chicken. He eats no fruits or vegetables. I totally believe his emotional health, which they diagnose as add, is due to a chemical imbalance. It is believed the preservatives in hot dogs and other processed meats can cause add symptoms and these things are a mainstay in his diet. But fiancé believes the food companies are to be trusted as the doctors are. After much major lecturing on my part, fiancé is finally turning into a believer though and now the kid will occasionally drink a protein drink that I concocted and fiancé withholds sweets. Of course the kid finds a way to get them on his own, but at least something is being done.
I hate to think of this kid addicted to the sleeping pills and speed he is on, but hey he isn’t my kid. Not much I can say.
It is all I can do myself to restrain myself from indulging in bad foods myself.
Yesterday she told us she had been to her doctor and her blood pressure was like 100/60. She is off all meds, has kept her weight off and she said she is just a calmer person. She quit a stressful job she hated and is embarking on a new career in the medical field. She looks great and bought herself a convertible. In other words, she transformed her life 180 degrees.
She contributes most of her success to finding Bikrams. Then she told us about her friends who are skeptical. To even try it. Because THEY HATE HEAT! Or they don’t have time. Or they just don’t believe, in the face of a prime example of it WORKING, that it can work and do all of that.
Of course you would think her doctor is a believer, but no. The yo yo said she needs to check with the other dumb dumb doctor specialist to make sure she should not be on the meds. Those docs believe in the meds the pharmaceutical companies get them to sell and that the insurance companies cover with money from our premiums. They back those up. I guess the yo yo must believe that the meds are better than yoga, which is weird. And a fad.
I asked what she did to change her eating habits and she said after the yoga started, her eating habits changed sort of gradually and naturally.
She knows she was on the path to deadsville. She got scared straight after the heart attack. Most people are scared when it happens. They might go through surgery and rehab, but chances are, they forget about being scared and almost dying and go back to what go them there.
Did you know during bypass surgery that they actually have to stop your heart and the biggest risk of the surgery is that they can’t start it back again, which the risk of is even larger if you compound it with obesity and other related problems?The sad thing is most of our society would think the doctor is right. Going off meds they prescribe is dangerous! My fiance’s 14 year old son was ‘diagnosed’ with ADD last year and this year still takes a sleeping pill at night to sleep and then pops a pill to wake up. My fiancé is really against drugs. He thinks drugs are evil, if they are not prescribed by a doctor and he trusts the whacko therapist who prescribed this, because now the kid seems ‘better’. This kid lives on the following foods: orange soda, chips, hot dogs, bologna, white pasta occasionally, white bread, and occasionally some beef or chicken. He eats no fruits or vegetables. I totally believe his emotional health, which they diagnose as add, is due to a chemical imbalance. It is believed the preservatives in hot dogs and other processed meats can cause add symptoms and these things are a mainstay in his diet. But fiancé believes the food companies are to be trusted as the doctors are. After much major lecturing on my part, fiancé is finally turning into a believer though and now the kid will occasionally drink a protein drink that I concocted and fiancé withholds sweets. Of course the kid finds a way to get them on his own, but at least something is being done.
I hate to think of this kid addicted to the sleeping pills and speed he is on, but hey he isn’t my kid. Not much I can say.
It is all I can do myself to restrain myself from indulging in bad foods myself.
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